Sometimes I start to wonder why things go so well. Or why we have been so blessed. Very quickly I stop myself. Instead I express my gratitude. I have felt this way for quite some time. I feel very taken care of. Most recently I have felt that prayers are being answered on my behalf and I'm incredibly grateful.
In the past when Spencer has been gone, while we have all survived, I have not handled things as I should. My mentality was pretty much just to get through the time Spencer was gone and then things would be better. Yes, things are better when Spencer's around, but life must still continue when he's not. This time things have been different. I have done more with the kids and it's been great. What's funny to me is that I'm figuring this out with four kids. It would have been much easier to figure it out with two. :) At least I'm learning it at all!
It's kind-of hard to explain what it is I'm feeling and learning. I can say - as I've mentioned before on this blog - that your capacity grows with your experience. A little over a year ago my sister Bethany shared a quote with me: "That which we persist in doing becomes easy to do, not that the nature of the task has changed, but that our capacity to do has increased." (Heber J. Grant, Improvement Era, 1936)
I think what's going on right now is that I am in the middle of this. It's a wonderful feeling to see your capacity increase. It's tiring, but wonderful. I think I may just need to get used to being tired.
I was going to keep going, but I need to stop myself because I need to finish packing for our trip (leaving bright and early tomorrow morning!).
To those of you praying for us -- and anyone who has ever offered a positive thought in our direction -- Thank you. It has been felt.
07 April 2011
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5 comments:
you. are. welcome. (:
glad you're figuring things out and that you're able to enjoy this time even though it's hard.
yay faithy!
love you all and excited to see you soon!
You're so great! I love reading your inspirational messages.
I feel the same way. I wish I would have learned some things when I only had one kid. Things that would thrown me into a whirlwind 5 years ago, now might cause a shrug. :)
What a wonderful quote, Faith. I understand how you feel. I feel the same way often. You definitely have it all together (or at least it appears that way to me).
You are such a strong, amazing woman, Faith! I am so glad that your capacity is increasing! I definitely believe that the Lord blesses us with the strength that we need WHEN we need it. I am so grateful for that and will definitely be experiencing that next week when our little boy enters this world! Take care during this difficult time when Spencer's away.
Ya, you are pretty awesome. It's funny I am finding this same mentality lately. Things are finally coming together here. I will NEVER forget when you posted, "I want my kids to remember a happy mom." I think about that every time I want to hop in bed instead of building a block tower with Jeffrey or painting a water color picture with Katie. Thanks for spreading the strength Faith.
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