Me: Andy, what kind of present do you want for your birthday?
Andy: Uhh, BLACK!
Things have been going well lately. I have a tendency to let frustrations get to me and I end up responding in less-than-ideal ways to our kids. The end of a pregnancy is an easy time for this to happen. I'm not a bad mom. I'm just not always a very nice mom. On Sunday I realized something that is helping. We had ward conference on Sunday and a member of the stake primary presidency came to the class I teach (CTR-4, Benny's class). At the end of class this lady told me that she really enjoyed the lesson and said that I did a great job with the kids. I thanked her and was glad to hear the nice things she said. Then I wondered if someone observing me in our home would say the same thing about how I work with our kids. I want Christ to be a constant presence in our home. I don't think that he would give me the same feedback as the sister in church did. Sometimes, sure. There are often times, however, that I let fatigue get to me or I let myself get annoyed at the things all kids do. At those times I would not get the feedback that I am handling our kids really well. I'm working on getting that feedback.
I remember my parents telling all of us at different times that if we couldn't get along with our family members then we couldn't go play with our friends. I think I would be well-served if I institute that rule for myself now.
This pregnancy is continuing to go well. At my appointment today I found out I'm at a 3 and 50% effaced. I'm thrilled that things are headed in the right direction. This just goes to show every pregnancy is different. This is the first time I've crept along like this. We'll see how it ends up! (besides, of course, the fact that it will end with a baby.)
A little history: Because Benny was born by c-section I have to have one scheduled every time. Thankfully my doctor is willing to schedule them for as late as his insurance will allow giving me as much time as possible to go into labor on my own. Andy and Lilia were both delivered normally and we have no reason to think that won't happen again. I'm scheduled for 10 Feb, so, if nothing else, two weeks from tomorrow we'll be holding our new baby girly.
At this point everyone is nesting in their own way. The boys have been really starting to care for their stuffed animals in a nice fatherly way. It's really cute to see. They're doing a very good job taking care of their "babies." Lilia, also, is getting quite maternal. She's latched onto her babies much more lately. They know what's going on and it's really cute to see.
None of this may make sense. I've been close to falling asleep for a while now, so forgive me for the ramble. Hope you at least enjoyed the "overheard"!
26 January 2011
Overheard and random thoughts
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6 comments:
Oh, Faith, I totally hear you. TOTALLY. And I'm not evern pregnant. And I only have two kiddies. But yesterday I was feeling really down and pessimistic and impatient and then somehow I squeezed in a power nap and when I woke up, I realized I'm not depressed, just exhausted. Being a somewhat single parent is absolutely exhausting, especially being pregnant or having a baby who gets up multiple times a night. I'm sure you're doing much better than you give yourself credit for. We're always our worst critics.
Faith, I hope for your sake the baby comes earlier but if not, Feb 10th is Ashlyn's birthday so they can share their day! Good luck these next few weeks.
I completely understand your frustrations. Taking care of a family is an incredibly important job and can be a little rough at times. I love the concept your mom taught you has a child. I think there is great value to that. Thanks for the thougths.
I hate when I treat strangers and outsiders better than my family, it is such an easy trap to fall into. With the daily same ol', same ol' it's easy to get into a funk and forget what a true blessing it is to be serving our families, nurturing our chidren's hearts, and running our homes as God wants us too!!! Thanks so much for the reminder, I truly needed it!!
Finally got a minute to catch up on all the family blogs. Thanks for all the posts and pictures. Love them. Love you.
Wow, I did NOT realize how close you were to going into labor!!! I thought you were still a few weeks away maybe. (Sorry for asking for babysitting -- HA HA!) Hooray for 3 cm!!! Any day now!
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